I do not understand why day after day is not good. The stress and frustration level seem to be growing.

I have been told that when I talk to Branden I am too sarcastic. I have no intention of being sarcastic, but I keep getting told that is what I am. Branden will no longer discuss anything with me. Of course thinks are coming out in his therapy that could be classified as embarrassing so I can see where he would prefer to talk with Grandpa. It is a male thing.

Then we get to Billy. He feels he can yell at me and I am just to take it. That is not the way life is. Oh, he will apologize, but those are just easy words, no feelings.

It hurts very much to be treated the way both the boys are treating me. I do not deserve this and I do not accept it. But, nothing I say or do changes it. they just feel I am the resident Bitch and that is all I deserve. So sorry I try to make you behave like human being instead of street punks. So things are just not allowed in this house. To me it makes no difference what goes on in their friend's home, this is our home.

I pray constantly, I talk with friends and I write. Those are my outlets. Otherwise, I could make a couple of grease spots real quick. Be patient with me, I know this too will pass. But for now I am not a happy person again.

Love to all,
Granny

P.S. Still have not had Christmas with Terri and the boys.

I have decided that I still hate homework. I hated it over 40 years ago when I was in High School and I still hate it now.

Billy is having an very hard time in High School. So Granny is trying to help him. Yes, I am doing some of the homework. It is either that or nothing gets done!! Tonight I finished a report on Renaissance people. SCREAM!!! It wasn't anything hard, just that Billy has never been one to do projects in school. So guess who tries to help... I wonder when I will finally graduate again.

Tomorrow we get to do 3 biographies on famous people in Early Mesopotamia. I have already done 1, I wonder if I can get him to do a couple. Any bets??? Then there will be 2 more projects to get done quickly to try and save him World History grade.

I work too hard!!! I must love this kid...
Night
Granny

Last night I could have ranted and raved and screamed. I am still upset, but there is nothing I can do about the situation, so I will take a deep breath and go on.

Why am I upset?? Well, it seems that Terri's husband has decided that he is still sick and won't bring Terri and the boys down for Christmas. OK, IF that were the case there would be no problem. But you see I have called a few times on his phone thinking maybe he was at home. Each time he has been at work or out and about. will he drive here for the day??? Not going to happen. Terri told me last night that she told him FINE!! She will just take a Saturday off and come down. He got upset and told her she could afford to take a Saturday off, they need the money.

Gee... Nobody is working today... Yes, I am feeling like a bitch!! I was very much looking forward to seeing Anthony and Skyler opening their gifts and seeing the joy in their eyes. I was looking forward to seeing Terri open her new grill that she has wanted for so long.

We all have to return to school and work tomorrow. their school doesn't go back until the 7th. Terri's work week is usually Friday to Monday. Now just when will we get to have Christmas with our grandsons? Then the disappointment here. Branden is really hurt. He was so looking forward to a normal Christmas after being away from home last year.

Oh well now it is 2008. We will be looking forward to a great year and to the many new changes it will bring.

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!!
Granny