I got up early this morning
and rushed into the day.
I had so much to accomplish that
I didn't take time to pray.

Problems just tumbled about me,
and heavier came each task.
"Why doesn't God help me?"
I wondered. He answered,
"You didn't ask."

I wanted to see joy and beauty,
but the day toiled on. gray and bleak;
I wondered, why God didn't show me.
He said, "But you didn't seek."

I tried to come into God's presence,
I used all my keys at the lock.
God gently and lovingly chided,
"My child you didn't knock."

I woke up early this morning,
and paused before entering the day.
I had so much to accomplish
that I took time to pray.
-Author unknown

This poem is hanging right where I see and read it every morning. I just wanted to share it with you all. I think it is very special.

TTYL
Granny

Posted at 4:44PM PST

I have been on an emotional roller coaster for a while now. I really do not like it when I feel completely in the basement. It is so bad today that everyone asked me if I was overtired or what. I must really be showing my feeling.

This is such an empty feeling and I know I am not empty. I know I have support, and I have my Lord. But, some days I lose control of the wall and people can see what I feel. today is that day.

Yes, it is the boys. It doesn't matter what I ask, or what I say, I don't matter. That hurts a whole bunch. then I have Ray telling me I should do this and I should do that. I just want to crawl under the bed and stay there. Trouble with that idea, there is no room. It is an electric bed. What I really feel like doing is crying. And that is the one thing I really do not like doing!!! Maybe I need medication.. Wouldn't be the first time.

I know God answers prayers. He answers them in His time and His way. I must be asking for the wrong thing. I need to rethink what it is I truly need. But then again, He knows that better than I do! I know He is always within reach and always with me. I just feel so lost, hurt, and defeated.

People come on here and pour their hearts out. that is SO hard for me to do. I try to keep things in check and put up a strong front. I am anything be strong. Right now I feel very fragil and maybe even broken. Depressed is what I am.

Why is it I can work with other peoples children and reach them and I can not reach my own? Why can I not motivate them to care about themselves? I know what drives them, but when does the past stop ruining the current and future?? there has to be an end to all this.

Yes, I am feeling very sorry for myself. It is not right, but I can not help it tonight. I wasn't going to write a thing, but then I thought just maybe it will help. Ever since we lost our home church I have felt disconnected and alone. I need that feeling back. No, going back to that church is not an option. I think I have covered that enough.

So there now I have poured it out. For whatever good it will do I don't know.

Thanks for just being there to dump on.

Granny

Posted 7:54PM PST

Today we drove out to our sons place for a duel birthday party for his two kids. They were both born in April so that makes it fun. Gabriel is 12 and Anna is now officially a double digit. 10!!! They are both good kids.

Their Mom home schools them besides running the family goat farm. She raises goats, sells milk, eggs and I don't know what all. I saw bunches of bunnies out there today. That is one busy lady.

She was helping my son build something the other day and a piece of 2X6 flew down and hit her right in the head. She got a huge goose egg on her forehead. She was still having head aches today. I am concerned. She looked off today.

The boys all grabbed an Air-soft gun and out back they went. That kept them occupied for hours. they seem to enjoy shooting each other with those little plastic BBs.

It was a good visit and the weather was not too mean to us. It tried to snow a little, but not enough to even think twice about. Now, if the temperature will just go up a bit, that would be nice. I don't need much...

Well, it is time to chase everyone their own direction. Like showers and bed.. Everyone have a wonderful week.
Granny

I tried not to send this to anyone it might offend.

Beautiful Blonde Pole Dancer

If you should find it too offensive,

please advise, and I will remove your name

promptly from this type of emails!

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Too CUTE!!!

May you always have enough HUMOR in your life!

I knew you couldn't resist scrolling down to look!!!



Have a warm SNOWY Sunday. Yes, we are getting snow showers too. This is getting ridiculous. I know April showers bring May flowers, but they will be frozen.

Peace and Love,
Granny

P.S. It took me 2 tries to get this posted. Man I dislike when I mess up...

Posted by Granny at 9:58PM PST........

Remember this every time you pass that little
penny in the parking lot. I always thought that it
was for good luck, but I love this version better.


I found a penny today
Laying on the ground.
But it's not just a penny,
This little coin I've found.


Found pennies come from heaven,
That's what my Grandpa told me.
He said Angels toss them down.
Oh, how I loved that story.


He said when an Angel misses you,
They toss a penny down;
Sometimes just to cheer you up,
To make a smile out of your frown.



So, don't pass by that penny
When you're feeling blue.
It may be a penny from heaven
That an Angel's tossed to you.



So now pass this on to people you care about
And who you feel are Angels to you.
I just did.
An Angel is now watching over you.

Hugs to all,
Granny