I have been sitting here going around blogstream reading different posts. Some so wonderful and inspiring that I what to cheer. Others not so happy, and I want to cry for them. So, it seems that we all have our burdens to carry. Isn't it amazing how we all manage to get through our trials and come out stronger? That is what I am seeing.
Tonight my husband made the comment that everything is going to hell in a hand basket around here. Meaning the trouble we are having with the boys. I just looked at him and said, "it sure seems that way since we lost our church". That is the one thing I miss the most. Going to church as a family. I pray and pray for guidance to a good Bible based church. It will come.
I went with Billy to his therapy session yesterday. I got a real eye opener. I was sitting back and just listening and he started talking about things I didn't think he was old enough to remember. What a shock!! But, he is finally letting them come to the surface and dealing with them. He has tried to keep them repressed for so many years. His therapist thinks this is going to take a couple years to get him where he should be, but at least after all these years he is starting. You will never know the hundreds of prayers for this to happen. Praise God. God is good!!!
Going through what I know he has to face is not going to be easy. But I honestly think he can do this now. I think he is finally ready. He is very angry right now, and I am praying that when he gets through he will find peace. That is my pray for him.
Branden is still hibernating in his room. He did mention at dinner that he is completely confused about the project he is suppose to be working on. I already knew that and had told his teach that very thing. Branden has ADHD and can not see a project in small pieces. Just the giant big picture and he just stops, boom. that is where he is at right now. He will not allow any assistance so I can do nothing. So, I guess it will be his consequences. Hard lesson, but that is the way it is going to happen. He has been told repeatedly to just let the teacher know and they will help. But he doesn't.
So this is where I am tonight. I am searching for the peace in the valley.
Hugs to all,
Granny
Posted at 8:12PM PDT
It is hard to see children suffer - esp. when help is offered and rejected...
I am sorry...
Branden, on the other hand, should have spoken to his teacher a long time ago to make it easier on him...Can I help???
Kids deal with things in their own ways sometimes and unfortunately it can come out as anger and frustration. Keep the communication open and just keep reminding them how much you care and love them and want them to succeed. It's hard being a teenager and I bet it is even harder trying to deal with raising boys in this kind of society we live in today.
Blessings and serenity to you Granny!
Bear Hugs!
PolarB ;)
No matter how hard life is or has been, I've always been able to escape through written word. It opened up a world of hope and took me to places that i would have never known existed. I wish with all my heart that I could give every child in the world, the gift of reading because it will take them to places their minds never thought possible.
Give my love to the boys and a great big hug to you Granny. Lots of love,
H
As for Billy, I was shocked!!! Yes, the fact that he said that out loud. You have no idea how long I have prayed for a break through for him. Maybe now the long hard road can start getting shorter for him.
Thank you for the prayers and good positive thoughts.
Bill is the opposite he has a real dislike of reading. He struggles with school very much. But I love them both and that is all there is to that.
There are sleepless nights, nightmares, bed wetting, memories, body memories, anger, rage, hate, the need to destroy something, the need to understand things that are beyond your years! These things go through our minds on a daily basis, and to add more work or stress to the situation just isn't fair. Yet, we can't go through life dwelling on the past, but if we knew how to fix it we would.
Your boys are so fortunate to have you and Grandpa in their lives. No, they are blessed! I am blessed to have you in my life too. You words might be always looking for solutions in the Lord, but you never hate them as individuals, perhaps their actions at times, but never the child/boy. That really gives me hope in life! I have done many bad things in my life, and now I understand why those people that I have hurt, do not hate me for my actions, but the behavior. It's comforting.